Monday, December 29, 2014

New Years' Tag!

  It seems almost unbelievable that it was already a year ago I did this tag before! Wow. 2014 has come to a close, and we're on the brink of a brand new year! Yikes! It's so crazy, but really super exciting as well. The past year has been quite a doozy-- so many wonderful things have happened, so much excitement, so many ideas have bloomed, so much good, as well as bad. My head is spinning just thinking of it all. ;-P And here we all are-- one year older, and I hope all the wiser for it. 2014 has definitely been a challenge and a joy for me. I'm feeling really excited for the new year, and what it will hold. God can do amazing things, and I'm feeling so excited and honored to be a part of His grand story!
   So I did this New Years' tag last year, and I just had to do it again. :-)

What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?

  • I auditioned for and got a lead role in a musical, which was one of the most amazing experiences in my life to date 
  • I started seriously writing a novel, and wrote more than ever before
  • I met my best friend
  • I bought a laptop
  • I went to see a professional musical
  • I learned English Country dancing and went to two balls
  • I sewed a period dress (don't laugh-- I actually did, you know)
  • I started writing poetry (just a little)
  • I climbed a mountain. Well, I thought it was a mountain
  • I saw a ballet by a professional company
  • I saw a professional opera (it was scary)
  • I went to a national conference
  • I went to a summer music camp for a week 
Sadie and I when we went to see Les Miserables in the Spring

Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make one this year?

   I've never been in the habit of making resolutions, at least not strict ones....I did do lots of things this year that I'd hoped to, but also let the ball drop on a few. ;-P I have made a few resolutions this year-- we'll see if I live up to them!

My colonial-era dress that I MADE. 

Did anyone close to you give birth?

  Not anyone very close to me....some people I know, but no close friends.

Did anyone close to you die?

   An elderly family member on my mom's side died this fall, but I had only met her a few times and didn't know her very well.

What countries/states did you visit?

    I went to Indiana! Whoo-ee! A tie (with Virginia) for the farthest I've ever been away from my little valley here. I also went to Pennsylvania a lot, which is nothing new, since we're right on the border and have family there who we visit a lot. Mostly I just stayed home. Happiness. :-)

What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?

   More patience! You know, as far as material possessions, there's nothing I really want that I don't have. 

What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory?

   Oh, golly. So many things have happened this year. So many memories and special moments. Definitely January 26th, going to Wicked, and September 3rd which was my first rehearsal for Les Mis. I'll always remember my first audition, too, and the second. There were lots of days that were perfectly ordinary but will always remain with me because they were just so special in one way or another. One of them is the day I read half of To Kill a Mockingbird at the university where my sister takes violin lessons. One is the day we picked beans with our cousins, then went with them to pick strawberries and back to their house for the afternoon. One is June 21st, the day I started my novel and realized that I HAD to do this. 

Did you move anywhere?

   No, thank the Lord! 

What was the best month?

   I feel like January was really awesome....I'm realizing how much I love those late winter months. Also June and July. And August. Sheesh, I can't pick a best one! Oh, and November was utterly amazing for obvious reasons. ;-P

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

    I was Eponine in Les Miserables!!!!!

What was your biggest failure?

   I can't think of anything really significant, except not being as kind and patient and all the rest as I should have been. These are things I continually have to work on.     
Did you suffer illness or injury?

   Nothing serious, which I'm so grateful for.

What was the best thing you bought?

    My laptop!  I bought him in July, which literally changed my life, but in a good way. :-) His name is Cal Trask and he's been a good friend these past several months, although he has a few laptoppy issues (like being super slow sometimes.....) which of course he can't help. ;-P
   I also bought the Lonesome Dove soundtrack, which has been a source of happiness and bliss and writing inspiration and lots of other awesomeness. Same with the True Grit soundtrack. And I bought some good books. So, the usual. :-) And I bought a beautiful blue vintage dress, which I found at my favorite little consignment shop, that I wore to my audition and I'm going to wear it to a ball in a few days. :-)

Whose behavior merited celebration?

   My grandparents and parents and aunts and uncles and cousins, who are all amazing people.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

   Some of the people closest to me, unfortunately.

Where did most of your money go? It's awesome. *nods head*

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

  Being Eponine in Les Miserables!!!! Going to see Wicked live in January, getting my first real letter from my bestie across the ocean (and every one since), writing my novel.....this year was super exciting. Epic. 

What was the best concert you've been to this year?

   If Wicked counts as a concert, then there you go. And of course, our production of Les Mis, which was absolutely fabulous, but I'm pretty sure that doesn't count since I was in it. ;-P I saw a lot of area high school musicals last spring, the best of which was The Music Man.  The Kevin Costner concert I went to with Daddy was actually pretty cool-- mostly I enjoyed listening to Lily Costner. :-) I saw the Booth Brothers in May, which was really nice, and the Collingsworth Family in December. It's taken me a while, but I've found out that I'm not really much of a live concert person-- that is, I enjoy them, especially if I really like the person/group, but it's not my favorite thing. I used to wonder, sometimes, why I wouldn't get more excited about going to concerts....well, I guess it's just not my thing. ;-P

Lily Costner and Kevin Costner

What song/album will always remind you of 2014?

  Defying Gravity from Wicked....

 Caledonia sung by Celtic Woman....

Send Me A Song sung by Celtic Woman....

 .....and basically every Celtic Woman song I love so much now. Oh, and every note of every song from Les Miserables. :-)

Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. happier or sadder? happier, most of the time. There are things going on around me that could get me really depressed if I let them, but I'm learning not to let circumstances determine the position of my heart. Actually, I feel like I'm happier and sadder both. I just feel things so much more intensely now. Um, that was a really long answer. I'm sorry, what were you saying?
2. thinner or fatter? about exactly the same?
3. richer or poorer? personally, poorer. But basically the same.

What do you wish you'd done more of?

    The old answer: WRITE. Also pray. And talk. 

My cousin Rebecca and me :-)

What do you wish you'd done less of?

   Worrying is one of my lifelong struggles, and it really doesn't help anything.

What was your greatest musical discovery?

   I uncovered sooooo many good musicals this year-- most of them from the deep dark uncharted terrain that is the music section at the library, half of which has been officially confiscated by yours truly. ;-P A few of them are Shenandoah, The Scarlet Pimpernel, 1776, and Bonnie and Clyde. 
   I also recently discovered Mary Black, who is now one of my top favorite singers. I LOVE her voice and her style, and she sings a lot of popular Irish songs. My favorite is her Song For Ireland, which I literally canNOT stop listening to.

How did you spend Christmas?

  It was a rather unusual Christmas, actually. Our plans had to change at the last minute, but I ended up spending the day with my family and my grandparents and cousins, so it was great. We spent the afternoon at my grandparents' house, and then came home and watched Home Alone. I almost died laughing.

How are you spending New Year's?

  Well, if all goes as hoped, we might be watching a certain 4-hour movie called GONE WITH THE WIND with my cousin Mary.....*crosses fingers*

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?

   Heehee. I'm scared of the phone. It's just a scary thing. You never know who might be on the other end....oh, I get scared just thinking about it. Anyway. I really don't talk one the phone much, because A) I don't like it and B) no one ever calls me and I never call anyone (well, hardly ever), which suits me just fine. I did have a few really long conversations with Mary, though.

What was the best book you read?

  This year has been epic for good books. It was almost overwhelming. As always, I can't possibly pick one best book from all the unearthly awesome ones I read this year, so I'll just give you a list, which has been narrowed down as much as I possibly could. You love my lists, don't you?

   ~To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. Oh my stars. There is a reason why this is such a celebrated classic. It's that good. I finished reading it and then wanted to read it all over again. Then I just kind of walked around in a trance for about a week afterwards, because I was still living in Maycomb, Alabama.

 ~ Dawn's Early Light by Elswyth Thane. This book took me by the legs and hung me upside down, it was so good. I will forever be indebted to Goodreads for finding the Williamsburg series, which have become some of my very favorite books. Elswyth Thane is also now my second-favorite author. What else can I say about it? I won't go on and on about the book now, because I've already done that and if you're interested in reading about it you can here. But the best I can say is, just go read it. It will change your life.

~ All She Ever Wanted by Lynn Austin. Wow. This book literally blew me away. It was one of Lynn Austin's books that I'd been less eager to read (which maybe had something to do with the fact that it's technically a contemporary novel...silly me.) Now I'm tempted to say it might be one of her best. It was heartbreaking, inspiring, epic, tragic, depressing, engrossing, and completely captivating. I read it and then felt like I needed therapy of some sort, but it was totally worth it. Another book that will change your life.

~ Sixteen Brides by Stephanie Grace Whitson. I love this book! It was sweet, but serious enough to make me like it. It wasn't a love story, but there was a fair bit of romance and it was well-written, not predictable or sappy like Janette Oke most Christian writers these days. One of the best Christian historical novels I've read, actually. Read my full review here.

Did you fall in love in 2013?

    No. I'm fifteen years old. *smiles sweetly* That is, I assume we are not including fictional characters in this analysis....

What was your favorite TV show?

   *drumroll* Was and IS and forevermore will be....

  What did you want and get?

   A lot of CDs and a lot of books. :-) And my laptop, Cal!

What did you want and not get?

  Well.....there was this certain necklace that I really wanted for Christmas, but it didn't happen. I might not be able to handle it and buy it for myself for my 16th birthday. :-)

What were your favorite films of this year?

   I did watch some pretty awesome movies this year, but the best of all was undoubtedly GONE WITH THE WIND (which henceforth will always be typed in all capitals because...well, just because). It blew me away. With the wind. Ahem, that was lame. Anyway, I completely ADORED it and I can't wait to watch it again!
  Some other really good movies I watched were Fried Green Tomatoes, Walk the Line, Silverado and Broken Trail. Lots of westerns. Yup yup.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

   I turned fifteen on February the 2nd and had a lovely day with my family. It was a Sunday, so we went to church and then went to my grandparents' house and saw my aunt and uncle, and then we watched a lame movie in the evening. Actually, if I remember correctly, there were two lame movies involved...? Anyway, it was nice. :-)

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?

   *in Mr. Molesly's voice* "My WHAT?"

    Heehee. Good question. I don't really think about fashion much, to be honest, but I hope my personal style has been simple and classy and sort of western-ish. That's my goal, anyway. ;-P

This is what I want to look like :-)

What kept you sane?

   Long walks through the woods and the creek.....good writing. I have discovered this year more than ever that, as well as being my God-given gift and my calling and my passion and my absolute FAVOURITE thing to do, writing is totally therapy for a weary mind. Sometimes I get so full of emotions, good and bad, that I just have to get them all out on paper or else I might explode. I've written down everything this year-- the good, the bad, and the ugly. And man oh man, does it help to write it down! Passion is just so hard to handle sometimes, and when I write things out it really helps me get my thoughts in order and not implode from all my violent feelings. ;-P

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy most?

   You know, there really wasn't a specific one this year. I know, shocking. Well, I suppose, if I were to think really hard on it, and if you were to look at my pinterest, you might be able to come up with some sort of answer....

  And there's always this guy.....

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

    One thing? Being able to talk honestly with people, being able to bear my heart and soul to someone without feeling apprehensive about it. 
    What political issue stirred you the most?

  Nothing big happened, so yeah....nothing.

Who did you miss?

   I missed my friend who's moved to Turkey. We write letters and emails occasionally, but I haven't seen her in over a year.

Who was the best person you met?

   That's not hard. My kindred spirit and bestie dearest, Naomi. She's the best, sweetest, cleverest, most imaginative and wonderful friend I've ever had, and ever will, and has been an enormous blessing in my life. We're two of a kind, Naomi and I, and yet we're so incredibly different. It's crazy, and it's amazing. I love you, Naomi! :-)

Tell a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014.


Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

  I'm through accepting limits cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of losing love, I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy defying gravity! Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity! 
They'll never bring me down!
So if you care to find me, look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately, everyone deserves the chance to fly!
So if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me, take a message back from me....
Tell them how I am defying gravity!
I'm flying high, I'm defying gravity!

~ Defying Gravity

You get glory in the midst of this
And You're walking with me
You say I am blessed because of this
So I'll choose to believe
As I carry this cross, You carry me.

~You Carry Me, Audrey Assad
    Five personally significant events of 2014:

  • Playing Eponine in Les Miserables
  • Writing my first real novel
  • Getting to know my best friend Naomi better
  • Stepped out of my little hermit shell and actually getting to know some people
  • Going to see my first professional musical

Five things I want to do in 2015

  • Be in another musical
  • Finish the first draft of my novel
  • Be better at communicating and keeping in touch with friends
  • Get my permit and learn how to drive

    Also, something really super exciting, is that I'm going to see Celtic Woman in concert this March!!!!! How amazing is that?!? :-)

Five people I'd like to know better in 2015:

    My readers! I've met so many swell girls through blogging that I'd love to get to know better. It's so awesome.

    Happy New Year, everyone! I wish you all the very best in the coming year. Thank you so much for being my dear readers, and such good friends! I love you all and am so grateful for you. Here's to a smashing, wonderful, exhilarating, super-duper 2015!!! :-)     

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Holiday Ramblings

   Well hi there! It's me again! (Of course, you say. Who else would it be?) You probably didn't think I'd be back before Christmas, did you? Well, neither did I, but here I am! I'm tucked away in my little house on this cold winter afternoon, reveling in my own nonsensical thoughts and the exciting reality that CHRISTMAS IS ONLY TWO DAYS AWAY PEOPLE. Eeeeee!!!!! You probably couldn't tell I'm excited, could you? Well, I am. Yes, ma'am. Despite the fact that there is practically no snow on the ground (but there's a forecast of an absolute blizzard on Christmas day! I'm counting on it! ;-)) I'm feeling very happy and full today-- here in my little warm house with my little family, and all the other lovely little things that make up this quirky little life I call my own. :-)

 So! You're probably wondering where this is leading. The answer, truthfully, is nowhere! :-) I'm just in a very creative, silly, random mood, so here are some nonsensical holiday blatherings for you all to either completely ignore or read at your leisure. ;-P Heehee.

  We finally got our Christmas tree decorated! Here it is in all its glory. It actually took about three evenings to get it completely decorated because one or the other of us always had somewhere we had to go, because we're that pathetically busy. Plus we had to wait for the popcorn to get finished, which you know if you've ever strung popcorn, is an extremely tedious business. Guess who strung all the popcorn on this baby. ;-P

   Another view of the tree. It's very skinny and tall, but I think it has character, don't you? Unfortunately the poor angel on the top looks about ready to topple, though.

  Sadie got our printer to work the other day, and this is what we did. :-) We've had the printer for several months, but we just recently got ink for it and Sadie, being the brilliant young whippersnapper she is, got it all fired up for us. I went a bit nuts at with the wonderment of being able to print full-color pictures, as you can see. My fangirly side got a little carried away, but JUST LOOK AT THOSE PICTURES. And I may or may not have used up the vast majority of our ink on Matthew's black coat, heehee. I'm sitting on Sadie's bed right now, admiring them on the wall. Richard Armitage is staring meaningfully back at me. Oooooohhhh.

  This right here is the most infuriating and equally adorable cat in the entire universe. I could tell you all the impishly adorable and hilariously devious things Oliver has done in the recent past, but that would probably bore you, so I'll just say, here he is. Isn't he adorable?

   I watched Somewhere in Time again over the past two nights.....LOVE that movie. I told Mama I needed to watch it for research for my novel...haha. Not quite true, but it was inspiration. Truthfully, I was just feeling dreamy and romantic, and what's more dreamy and romantic than Somewhere in Time?! It was beautiful, of course, but the thing is, no matter how many times you watch it, it always ends the same way.....

One of my favorite ornaments on our tree. :-)
     I'm so excited that Christmas Eve is tomorrow! :-) Over on her blog, my bestie Naomi made a list of things she loves about Christmas, and I thought it was such a sweet idea that I'm going to copy her and do the same thing. ;-P So here are some of the things I love about Christmas...

~ the Joy
~ having the Christmas Tree in the house :-)
~ Snow (it'll come!)
~ the Presents (hey, I'm being honest)
~ getting together with Family
~ Christmas Movies
~ the Excitement
~ giving your sisters their Gifts ;-P
~ Christmas stories
~ THE Christmas Story
~ getting Exciting Things in the Mail
~ Christmas Decorations
~ Christmas Music
~ the Laughter (with my family, there's always laughter :-))
~ Christmas Traditions
~ waking up early to the sound of the Charlie Brown Christmas Album
~ being able to Squeal like a Little Girl ;-P
~ God's indescribable Gift to Us. I was reading my Bible this morning and came across a verse that said "Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift to us." It wasn't referring to the gift of Jesus, but I loved it and it made me think again of the awesomeness of God's sacrifice. :-)

   That about does it! I'd better scurry-- there is still much to do before Christmas! I hope you all have a wonderful, beautiful, magical, joy-filled holiday. :-)


Thursday, December 18, 2014

Christmastime is here!


     It's almost Christmas, guys! Wow. It seriously seems like it was just the first of December, and now I'm wondering where all that time went. Only six days till Christmas!


   So for the past week I've been experiencing that nagging feeling of "you need to post something", partly because I haven't been writing much here lately, but mostly because....well, it's Christmas, and I just couldn't let the season go by without sharing some of the delights of the season with all of you, my dear bloggy friends. :-)

   So. How should I write about all that this month has contained, all the excitement, the busyness, the laughter, and not to mention all the good movies? Well, this is when I turn to the trusty and oft-used method of....little letters! Hurray for randomness! :-)

 Hey, I just looked back at my archives from last year and realized that I wrote a December letters post on one year ago tomorrow. Isn't that a coincidence?

  Dear December.
    It would be really nice if you could be just a tad bit longer than all the other months in the year-- you know, so everything wouldn't have to be so crammed together. Then we would have more time to get everything done for Christmas, and not fall behind on everything else. Don't you see?

  Dear Snow,
    I wish you wouldn't be so fickle! Here one day, gone the next. Do make up your mind to stay this time, please. We must have snow for Christmas!

  Dear Walk the Line,
     Boy, you really know how to put a person through a lot in just two hours. Talk about feels. Oh, the agony and the ecstasy! I'll talk to you later. ;-P

 Dear Oliver,
    I always knew you were highly superior to every other cat. You can be an almighty nuisance sometimes, but goodness knows life would be far less entertaining without you. Although I do ask that you try to steer clear of my pillowcase, which can only handle so much. I love you, sweetheart.

 Dear It's a Wonderful Life,

  Excuse me a moment. *Emma blows her nose*

 What can I say? You had me from the very opening credits. And then when Jimmy Stewart came on screen, well, forget everything else. You were amazing. I should have known there must be a reason why you're such a classic. *blows kisses*

 Dear US Postal Service,
   You guys really are awesome, and I can't thank you enough for all you do!

 Dear The Man From Snowy River,
   *insert fangirling noise* You know, sometimes it takes two times around for me to realize how awesome a movie is. (Oh yeah, and it helps if you watch the whole thing.) You're a quirky, simple movie, but you definitely have a certain charm and I couldn't help but freak out a little at the end when Clancy says, "He's not a lad, he's a man. The man from snowy river." Gaaahhhhhh.

 Dear Celtic Woman,
   You girls are just so lovely. I absolutely love your Christmas songs, and I never get tired of listening to your angelic voices. AND YOUR DRESSES. Oh my stars, your dresses are gorgeous to the point of distraction.

  Dear Joshua Bell,
    Alright, we won't pretend we don't all know classical violin isn't my favorite. But're amazing. Really. You should have seen me the other day while washing dishes and listening to your Christmas CD. Scary. You would have been flattered by such violent reactions, let me tell you.

 Dear exciting Christmas packages,
   Eeeek! What is more exciting than getting things in the mail?! Especially Christmas presents from bestie dearest, far away across the ocean....:-)

 Dear vlog that I just made yesterday,
   Please convert thyself to a smaller file so I can upload you to blogger and make life easier for all of us. Thank you.

 Dear Christmas tree,
   Now that you're in the house, it really feels like Christmas is just around the corner! Yikes, I'm so excited. :-) You're a fine tree, if I do say so myself, and you'll look even finer once we've got you all decorated tonight.

  Dear mountainous stack of books to be read,
     I'll get to you, I promise. All in good time. Wait until after Christmas, then it'll get real.

  Dear God,
    You continue to surprise me. :-) I can't thank you enough for being....well, just for being who You are. I can't put it any better than that. (And here I thought I was a wordsmith. ;-P) You're 100% reliable, and with You the creativity never runs low. Help me to keep focused on You and be especially mindful of what You did, the real reason why we celebrate this time of year.

  Dear Tasha Tudor,
     Sometimes I really wish you were still alive. We'd be such good friends, I know it. Thanks so much for writing such darling children's books! I am forever indebted to you.

 Dear Pinterest,
    You need to stop. Er, I mean, I need to stop.

 Dear characters tumbling around in Emma's head,
   You needn't be so rowdy in there. Honestly, how's a person supposed to think when you're all talking at once? One at a time, please, and don't worry, I'll get to you all. Just be patient.

 Dear sudden wild inspirations,
  You're the best. There's something about having a sudden idea, the kind of idea you never expected, that makes a person feel new and fresh and rejuvenated, ready to give whatever it is their all. Sometimes the wildest inspirations are the best. For instance, who'd have thought Emma would ever write a contemporary work of fiction? I certainly never would have!

 Dear people who I admire and respect,
   You know, I really don't think you have any idea how far your influence reaches sometimes, or how much I look up to you. The fact that I'm who I am today is largely owing to several people who don't even know I exist. So thanks. You do far more than you know.

 Dear Charlie Brown Christmas album,
    Nothings sounds more like Christmas than you do. :-) Golly, we must play you about 25 times every year. You'll always be a very special part of Christmas for me.

   You're pretty awesome. Especially since you make it possible for me to do all my Christmas shopping without setting foot outside my house, which is nice. :-)

 Dear Bing Crosby,
    *happy sigh* I seriously could listen to your voice all day. You're such a classy gentleman, and you always make me smile.

    Awwwww. I love this scene. :-)

  Dear people who read this blog,
    You are such a huge blessing in my life. I'm so lucky to have met so many wonderful girls in the past two years that I probably never would have come across any other way, who I've come to think of not so much as just blogging buddies but really, truly, honest-to-goodness friends. I feel so close to you all, even those of you who I maybe don't know at all, because I feel like this is a place where I can be honest and real and just be me. Thank you all so much for being the dears you are. I hope your Christmas season is very merry and bright! "God bless us, every one!"

Monday, December 8, 2014

The Story of Today (and all its frustration and glory)

   *long sigh*

   You know when you feel like you should be writing, you WANT to be writing, you have things you want to write...but for some reason or another, you just can't? Welcome to Today in Emma's world. All day it seems as though I've been waiting for a quiet moment, searching for a quiet spot, trying to get everything I need to do DONE so that I can concentrate on my writing. And then when I get there, finish my school and my chores, open my notebook, and write the words, "Chapter 10".....nothing happens. No words come to me. It's like I'm a well that's dried up, to use the oft-quoted adage. I just can't write.
   Then I get distracted by other things.....mostly, dreaming of writing (and this big thing by my desk called The Piano). I think about my characters all the time. I think about what I want to write, but I'm either not there yet in the story (and heaven forbid I should jump ahead of myself!) or I'm not sure about the idea yet, not sure if that's how I want things to go, or maybe I should do it this way instead., and....ARGH. It's exhausting, being me. I exhaust myself.
  The hardest part, I think, is finding the time. No, not 'having' the time-- I have the time, but I have to find it. I have to stop doing other things that aren't as important. Deep down, I know what I want to be doing-- what I NEED to be doing. But it's so much easier to just prance through the day, playing the piano when I have a spare moment, laughing with my sisters, frittering away time on Blogger and Pinterest....instead of what actually needs to happen, which is me sitting down at my desk (no, not ON my desk), taking my pen and paper, and bleeding. Er, I mean, writing.
For once, the old boy and I share the same sentiments.
  If I'm learning anything from these struggles (and I am, you better believe I am), it's that the hardest things are really what prove to be the most worthwhile. The very fact that this is so difficult for me has me convinced more than ever that this is what I was born to do. I AM a writer. I'm just....not quite there yet. I'm still struggling. Then again, I don't think there will ever be an end to the struggling, but I know it will come easier with time to get myself in line and set down a legit schedule (ooh, wonder what that word means?) that will help me get into the habit of writing (and writing a lot) every single stinkin' day. Because some days I don't, at all. I know, it's shameful, and I feel awful when I go to bed with the sinking despair of knowing I have nothing in writing to show for the day. (In the way of fiction, that is, because I write down thoughts and bits of nonsense basically every single day). Of course, every day isn't like this one-- some days I'm good, but some days I'm just all over the place and can't get myself to calm down and sit for long enough to get anything of value done. Like I said, sometimes it's so frustrating I want to just scream and pull out all my hair. (Don't worry, I don't actually do that.) But that's all part of the journey. It's got to get worse before it gets better. It's not a crime for a writer to let a day go by without working on her novel, even though she herself might feel like it. ;-P I just have to take a deep breath, tell myself this feeling of insurmountable frustration will pass. I've got to just trust the Lord that if it's meant to be, it'll darn well be. And I can console myself that I can always try again tomorrow. Because after all, tomorrow is another day.

   So there's my rant for the day. ;-P And boy, does it feel good to get that out! Whew. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of me. *Emma perks up* Besides the ol' writer' block, it really hasn't been that bad of a day-- actually, it's been a very good day in most all other respects. I'm very happy, despite the fact that I have been unable to write anything of substance for two days, and the lamentable lack of a certain white phenomena called snow.....;-P I just needed to get that off my chest.

  So! I know I haven't been blogging much lately.....I've been, well, preoccupied. This week especially is super busy, with concerts and schoolwork and rehearsals and blah-de-blah-de-blah. Fun stuff. Last week was pretty crammed too, come to think of it. Heh. But I did manage to finish an entirely AMAZING book by the name of Celia Garth, and I finally got to watch Walk the Line, which. was. amazing. And we went to see a local Living Christmas Tree show, which was beautiful as always. Christmas is getting closer! Eeeep, I'm so excited!!!! I'm hoping to be blogging more in the near future, because I've got lots of thoughts to share and posts I want to write, and I miss sharing those with all you lovely ladies! *Emma immediately starts thinking of a Les Mis song* Ooops, I didn't mean to do that. How about we say "charming" ladies instead. That's better. Anyway, I hope you all are having a fabulous December, and looking forward to Christmas!!!

Me and my cousin Katie on Thanksgiving

  Seriously, I value you all so much! I hope to share some of the fun things happening this Christmas season here on 'the blog' with y'all. I'm thinking of maybe even making a vlog, about my favorite Christmas memories. I've never made a vlog before, but I've recently discovered that I can take videos on Cal (my laptop), and I'm going to try it and see how it works. Not promising anything, but here's to hoping. :-) Anyway, have a good week, and  hope to 'see' you all soon!

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